Brain

my brain is developing even more
on the home front, I seem safe for now, but only because my mother gets to upset when my father tries to reason with her

The joy of life

I've been blocking out my parents conversations, though I heard enough to realize that my mom does want to have me, and then give me up for adoption. my dad, however, does not want me....
oh! I feel cramped *stretches*
"ow!"
oops
"aww little Ivy are you in there?" wow
"what, did you name it?"
"of course"
I block out the rest.
that makes me feel better
she knows my name
it makes me smile and hope that I will live and run around with joy someday

oh no.

I was flexing my elbows when I heard things
"ow" said my mother I suppose
"what?" my father
"nothing"
"look, I already know"
"know what?"
"that you're pregnant"
"I don't know what you mean"
"don't lie to me!"
"I'm not! don't hit me!"
"why didn't you get rid of it!!! we can't have a kid. now you're attached to it aren't you?"
I only hear mumbles, then
"sorry I yelled and hit you"
more mumbling
......................
no
they don't want me
they don't know how great I would be
my father called me it
how unloved am I?
it's not right
are they going to kill me?
all I can do is cower, with no one to tell them I can hear them and wish I could tell them how much I want to love them